Damn I miss you. Im tired. feel like im finally getting sick and im still pissed at my friend for passing out on my couch. he took some meds for his lungs and it knocked him out for hours. im tired. i dont want to talk about that now. i want to talk about you and how i miss you so very much. how id give anything to see you and be with you right now. i miss my other half so much. i love you Kristina. I love you with all my heart. I can’t wait until we can spend every night together and no longer have to be apart. i really miss holding you and having you close to me. i miss feeling you in my arms. you drive my so very crazy. i wish i could drive you crazy right about now. i hope you’re doing okay baby.

Sugarland – “What I’d Give”

I had put this on the blog before, but never realized it was a cover of a Pretenders song. I can’t stop thinking about you Tina. I hate going to sleep without you. I hate waking up without you. We’re supposed to be together. Now and for as long as you want me.

I love you with all my heart other half. I hope you always know that. Especially on these long weekends like the past few. I never stop thinking about you…and wishing you were with me, or I was with you. I just want to be with you.

The Pretenders – “I Go To Sleep”

i miss you baby. im so happy to be able to just chat with you. especially after the long weekend. but it still sucks not having my phone on. I feel terrible. I really wish i could give you a timetable on when i could see you again too. I love you Tina with all my heart, and i promised you that i’d be back and i will. im just sorry im not there now with you. I hope you’re doing okay babe. I know you’re working right now, just know that I love you with all my heart. That hasn’t changed any. I just need to get a plan together, get my shit together and get bck over there to you. Then everything will be alright. That’s how i feel in my heart. i know it will. i know we should be together right now. i miss my other half so fucking badly.

Kenny Chesney – “You Save Me”

I miss you. That’s an understatement!!! I miss you so fucking much Tina. I can’t even put into words how badly I miss you. How my heart is longing for you so badly right now. I just keep thinking about everything we used to do. Just remembering all the stuff we’d do together…and all the stuff we should’ve been doing if I was still there…or was able to come back.

I love you. I miss you. I can’t stop thinking about you. I hope you’re doing okay baby. I wish I could wrap my arms around you right now and make you feel warm and fuzzy and happy. I want to give you so much lovin’…hehe, that looks so bad for some reason. but i do. my arms miss you. i miss holding you and falling asleep with you. i miss waking up with you. i miss everything about you tina. i want to hear you giggle again. or say Oh My God. hehe. or see you blush. or stare into those beautiful eyes of yours. I’m guessing they’re a little silver/blue now since it’s fall. like last year. like when i was out there the first time.

Damn i miss you. Im gonna go to sleep wishing i was holding you. i hope i can see you soon. im working hard. almost done with those paintings. maybe i can move a few more and have some money saved up. im trying. i just wish i was there with you already.

This song always reminds me of you. i just watched this version just now and you are my match, I guess that’s why it always reminds me of you. You’re my other half. Im alone (and lonely) without you. i love you with all my heart. I can’t wait to see you again. To feel you again and kiss you again. I really wish i could right now. I love you baby. i hope you’re doing okay. sweet dreams baby.

Sia – “Day Too Soon”

Fuck I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS you like crazy Tina.

Dido – “Here With Me”

Damn this was…is a long weekend. I hope you know that i havent stopped thinking about you since we got off chat on Friday. that seems so long ago too. damn i miss my other half. i miss you so very much. i love you tina. with all my heart. i hope you had a good weekend baby. i hope you’re dad is doing well too. did you dress up for halloween. hehe. im just missing you a whole lot. it seems like forever since i last kissed you. i wish i was already there. i wish i was still there. i cant stop thinking about how good it feels to have you in my arms. i be able to hold you close to me and tell you that I love you. i miss being there beside you. i miss everything about you and everything we’d end up getting into. it didnt matter, just as long as we were together. that’s all that mattered. I love you Kristina. with all my heart. I hope you always know that. you’re my other half. the love of my life.

Brad Paisley – “Then”

I miss you. got up a little early to see if you might be on, but it was already 9am your time. I hope you have a good day today sweetheart. I’m probably going to eat some breakfast, do some chores, get some painting done then head out after noon or so. I miss you so fucking much. I love you other half. with all my heart.

Lifehouse – “You and Me”

I can’t stop thinking about you. and how we were together this time last year. how we were together just a few months ago. that seems like ages ago. just more proof of how much we really should be together right now. my heart longs to be with you constantly. i never stop missing you. i miss touching your face softly before we’d get lost in a kiss. i miss the room spinning after we did stop kissing long enuf to catch our breath and come up for air. hehe. i miss everything about you. i hope you’re doing well other half. i worry about you all the time too. just wanna make sure you’re okay. that you’re fine and happy and safe and i can’t wait til were no longer apart. i cant wait til we can fall asleep together again. you in my arms, head on my chest, holding you close to me. i miss doing that. i miss everything Tina, but most of all i miss you. i love you sweetheart. i love you with all my heart. I can’t wait till we can start out forever together.

Hehe…I like Alison’s version better btw

Ronan Keating – “When You Say Nothing At All”

Alison Krauss – “When You Say Nothing At All”

These songs just remind me of you alot…i know i’ve posted them all on the blog a few times before, but i just want to post stuff that means something to me. to us. not just something new for the sake of something new. so todays song is wonderwall. cuz it always reminds me of you whenever i hear it. im feeling all out of sorts today. i think im just pouting inside cuz i cant call you or see you or touch you. just having one of those super blah days where i can either break out balling with tears or beat someone up in the blink of an eye. just…lost without you. aching to see you again. my heart is so empty. i need warm fuzzies from my other half to fill it up again. im tired of going to bed alone. im tired of not saying goodnight to you. im tired of feeling alone…and like whatever…everyone’s happy long as they get what they want. graphics, paintings, rides here and there, but it seems like no one cares about what i want (im talking about my family and friends, not you btw). its like…people see me fucking struggling out here…grinding and fucking breaking my back for what? for dinners and gas money? fuckers. fuck that. i wish people would think. sorry…now im venting but i have no one else to talk to. not even you now since youre at work and my stupid ass phone is off. fuck. im just making myself upset not. i gotta get out of this blah that im in right now. its not healthy and im bound to get bitter like this.

i love you sweetheart. i hope you’re doing okay by the time you get to read this. i miss you so much other half. im watching the World Series now…only cuz i know you love the Yanks. and that reminds me of you too.

Oasis -”Wonderwall”

weird…this didnt post a few weeks ago and i was going to use the reason for the song of the day…i’ll post on it and leave what i wrote down below. I love you. I miss you. I hate not being able to contact you in anyway other that msgs. I love you with all my heart Tina. You are the love of my life. my other half. the person i want to grow old with and spend the rest of my days and night with. that’s real. that has never changed. i long for you more and more everyday. and missing you this badly…only means my heart is there with you. that you’re the one for me. that my heart…i really did leave it there with you. and i need to come and get you. come and be with you again. i miss you so much. i did nothing earlier. stared at your pics and missed you like crazy. missed all the wonderful nights we’d spend together and wind up falling asleep in each others arms. fuck i miss everything about you. us. i need you. more than ever. forever. really. i do. i hope you’re doing okay baby. I love you Tina.

what i wrote from a few weeks ago and didnt post for some reason. it must’ve gotten stuck in ’send’ and just saved as a draft. i don’t know, but you can read it now. .

I just wanted to say that I’ve missed you dearly these past few weeks. All this painting had me all over the place, but at least I don’t have to press and worry bout that now. Now I just need to move them and try to make some money. I saw Dana again at the shop when I went to pick up my paintings but I didnt get to ask her about the tickets and whatnot. I’ll do that when I see them again. I’ll be so happy to see my beautiful other half again. I really need to feel you and I need you to feel me again. I hate being away from you. I just hope you know that you’re always in my heart baby. I just want to get back to you and everything that I’m doing now is working towards getting to that point. You’re my heart, my other half. I love you Tina. I hope you’re having a good time at you’re aunt’s and you’re feeling better too. hehe, i think you just sent me a message. okay baby. i’m heading out to skate off this hangover. I love you and I miss you.

Hoobastank – “The Reason”