These songs just remind me of you alot…i know i’ve posted them all on the blog a few times before, but i just want to post stuff that means something to me. to us. not just something new for the sake of something new. so todays song is wonderwall. cuz it always reminds me of you whenever i hear it. im feeling all out of sorts today. i think im just pouting inside cuz i cant call you or see you or touch you. just having one of those super blah days where i can either break out balling with tears or beat someone up in the blink of an eye. just…lost without you. aching to see you again. my heart is so empty. i need warm fuzzies from my other half to fill it up again. im tired of going to bed alone. im tired of not saying goodnight to you. im tired of feeling alone…and like whatever…everyone’s happy long as they get what they want. graphics, paintings, rides here and there, but it seems like no one cares about what i want (im talking about my family and friends, not you btw). its like…people see me fucking struggling out here…grinding and fucking breaking my back for what? for dinners and gas money? fuckers. fuck that. i wish people would think. sorry…now im venting but i have no one else to talk to. not even you now since youre at work and my stupid ass phone is off. fuck. im just making myself upset not. i gotta get out of this blah that im in right now. its not healthy and im bound to get bitter like this.

i love you sweetheart. i hope you’re doing okay by the time you get to read this. i miss you so much other half. im watching the World Series now…only cuz i know you love the Yanks. and that reminds me of you too.

Oasis -”Wonderwall”