Another song by Westlife, Tina sent this one to me on HP earlier today. Today was a better day than most. Just…sometimes, most of the times, hell…all the time, it’s better to get back to basics, ya know. Get back to that place where you know why you’re happy and not why you’re so pissed off.

Tina had texted me something a few days ago that, I should’ve listened to. She said that we really should just focus on us instead of these stupid people. And…I think I had spent the better part of two days focused on what was pissing me off…haha, just check the blog about Jaime and some of the shit I was writing and you know it’s true.

I put all my focus and energy on being pissed off about…something I couldn’t change or do about for the past couple of days. I guess it was all pent up anger and rage, ya know. Never vented it out and it blew up. But I know that, it would’ve been more healthy to get that shit all out instead of bottling it up. And that, unfortunately effected my whole demeanor and everything. Driving around pissed off, snapping at people left and right, and letting it all just get to me…I almost let it fuck my shit up. 

But alas…no more. No more venting ranting and raving from me. I’m gonna try to channel all that time and energy into what really matters, me and Tina and not on what doesn’t matter like dumb ass whores and their Michael McDonald looking moms. See…that was all said with a smile

Speaking of smiles…I miss seeing Tina smile. Yeah, fuck you I’m a sap. I miss Tina. Fuck. Two weeks away and it still sucks…it still hurts. All day I couldn’t think of anything but holding her in my arms and kissing her. I miss it all. Our long country drives, going out to some place to eat or play some pool or something…sitting on the couch watching DVDs. I miss all the times we had together. 

February always seems to come around fast. I’m hoping for the same this year.

Westlife – “No Place That Far”