Well…it’s been a week…and shit’s not getting any easier. Thanksgiving was as best as it could be considering the circumstances. Tina made dinner for her family over at her Dad’s place and I went to my Uncle’s then came back here with the rest of my crazy family for dinner. We were supposed to be chillin’ too…but it’s all good. I can’t focus and dwell on that.

My family’s funny…I keep getting teased by everyone…well, fuck from my family and friends. Haha…but it’s all good. I feel good getting teased about Tina. I love her and hell…it’s all in good fun. Ain’t nobody being too stupid or vindictive. But…yeah, I miss my Tina a whole helluvalot. This week has been surreal and seems to be moving in slow motion. I mean…we were still together this time last week. Fuck I hate it. 

I’ve been listening to Brad Paisley’s “She’s Everything” and have really really been feeling the lyrics. Pretty pretty song and I’ve been feeling more and more sappy the longer I’ve been away from Tina. And it feels like we’ve been apart forever. Blah. We’ve been texting and calling each other like crazy…but that still doesn’t make up for not being able to kiss her or hold her…crap…i’m sapping out now listening to “You Save Me”. 

Scot the Wanderer is good peoples btw. I’ve known that dude for…hell, 20 years now and he’s always been the homie. Right on for the encouraging words and all that dude. Seriously…I’m thankful for all the encouraging words from everyone. It helps…this sucks, but it helps. Even all the teasing and fuckin’ around and joking helps. 

*sigh*

Brad Paisley – “She’s Everything”

She’s a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She’s I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She’s I can’t find a thing to wear
Now and then she’s moody

She’s a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She’s a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She’s a warm conversation
That I wouldn’t miss for nothing
She’s a fighter when she’s mad
And she’s a lover when she’s loving

[Chorus]
And she’s everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
‘Cause she’s everything to me

She’s a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She’s a cross around her neck
And a cuss word ’cause its Monday
She’s a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She’s a one glass of wine
And she’s feeling kinda tipsy

She’s the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She’s a picture in my wallet
Of my unborn children’s mother
She’s the hand that I’m holding
When I’m on my knees and praying
She’s the answer to my prayer
And she’s the song that I’m playing

[Repeat chorus]

She’s the voice I love to hear
Someday when I’m ninety
She’s that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she’s the one
That I’d lay down my own life for

And she’s everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She’s everything to me
Yeah she’s everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She’s everything to me