So I had a cool chat with my pops this morning. We were smoking in the cave…i was on the phone with Tina and smoking and crying at the moment…anyways, my pops basically told me that these were the rough waters and if we could make it through the rough waters then the calm times would be great. If we could make it through this drama then maybe we were meant to be, we were the right ones for each other.

See, I love that about my pops. He’ll tell you what you need to hear, not necessarily what you want to hear. And it’s true. I know it. I know he wants only what’s best for me, even if it might mean me leaving, cuz he’s like that. He wants me to be happy and I feel good knowing that. Even if it’s hard on him with me not being here, he’s putting me ahead of that. I want to be like that. I hope I grow to be more like that, ya know. Cuz that’s real love. 

Fuck, I miss Tina. Oh…we set a date for me to make it back there…and get this, it’s Valentine’s Day next year. That’s when the sequel comes out…cuz…’C'mon Sid…everyone loves a sequel” Haha, that’s a nod to the song of the day too btw. Yep, Valentine’s Day I’m heading back there so…all you saps start saying “Awwww” now. I’ll wait for you.

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Haha…okay…yeah, so it’s hard as fuck right now. I’m down. Tina’s down but we both know that we’re going to see each other again…soon. It feels so awkward not holding Tina as we fall asleep. I think that’s what I miss the most…just holding her…knowing she’s there.

Nick Cave – “Red Right Hand”